So Lonely

 So I am sitting her listening to some Atreyu  - Wait for You and I am just so lonely right now.  Ugh.  I hate that feeling.  Now Breaking Benjamin is on now Diary of Jane.  Anyways.  My life seems so unimportant to me these days. I always have to revert back to the atrocities of this rancid world that I call my own.  Many of you might try to tell me that I have it real good but I would like to be g to differ because you don't know the extent of my loneliness.  To look across the room and see so many happy faces and to not be able to share in their laughter.  I hate it.  But I must push on.  I am now trying to listen to something more up beat so I can get myself out of this funk.  I hope that I can do that though because I don't want to be sad.  I want to be happy and have someone to talk to about all my problems.  Everyone that I know is always so busy.  Anytime I need some advice I don't have anyone that I can ask so I just have to take action.  I can't just ask a friend what should I do in this situation?  Because you know what?  I send e-mails and instant messages and voice mails and what not and no response. Oh well So let me tell you about me if you are still reading though this freakin pity parade that I am taking you through.  I am 30 years old.  I lost my mother and brother in 2009 and I still have not been able to go to their graves.  They are in Alabama and I am stuck in New Jersey on Parole.  Blah.  Anyways let me get out of here. I am sure not to have many followers to my blog because I am totally not interesting at all.  SO that's it...I'm done.