What The...

So yea Here I am again. Sitting here doing nothing but looking for a job.  I thought I would just like to update this and let you know whats been going on in my life.  Not a damn thing.  I hate being in this program because I can't really talk to people like I want to.  I want to get out there and get me a girlfriend or be able to just talk to someone But shit.  I am stuck in this fucking program.  I don't know if I can curse on here but I will find out soon wont I?  So I miss all the things that come with a relationship.  Holding kissing touching loving and all that good stuff.  I miss having someone on my side.  Where I can tell them anything and they will trust in me and step up to bat for me when I am not able.  I think I am going to be single for the rest of my life.  I am ugly as sin.  UGH!!